Some AnxietyJuly 15, 2005
Today I had some anxiety about the surgery. I keep questioning whether I am making the right choice of having another surgery. I went in today to get measured for a brace. Tomorrow I go to the hospital for my pre-op appointment and bloodwork. I am trying to get things in order to not be around much for the next few weeks, but don’t really know how to do it. I feel like I am going on vacation from my life, but know it is going to be a ton of pain in the beginning, then will get better. I love Tony. He will do a good job with the girls when I am recovering. I know that Sierra is going to be a big help. She already does so much for me and Madeleine.
I guess I am so stressed that AF isn’t here. That irritates me because I want to be done with it before the surgery. I am late and no I am not pregnant.
I also don’t like having unresolved issues and am saddened by an even that shouldn’t have happened and is one that I cannot understand.
Sorry I don’t have any crochet events to share. I am in a spot I haven’t ever been before. I just don’t have it in me to pick up a crochet hook or even yarn. I never thought I could be like this. I guess I really do have anxiety/stress over this surgery. I haven’t picked up a hook in over a week and really haven’t crocheted anything of signifigance in about a month….wow, that is kind of depressing.
Lady Linoleum crochets some weird things…and recently crocheted an ostomy bag for Lori, which I think is pretty awesome in a weird way. I wonder what her take on the Dynesys pedicle surgery I am having would be. I picture a wired up spine with eyeballs, ha!